So a lot has happened. Girlfriend decided that she didnt want to be in a relationship anymore and just quit. Which has resulted in me not doing my writing twice a week during my traveling to San Fransisco. I just listened to the most recent eh team with Scotty Mac and it made me really question if I still want to do this magic thing much longer. I like playing the game and meeting some people but the community at large is just a huge pile of shit and it really makes me not want to be a part of it along side me thinking financially this is just a sink hole. I don't play in events, I'm always changing decks and I asked fucking Frank lepore, someone who I was incredibly excited to meet out of the community. Someone who I really looked up to in this fucking game for advice and not only did I get zero response from him, but after meeting him and hanging out with he and melissa, just doesn't even fucking care to say hey when I do during streams streams anymore or even acknowledge the fact that I exist. There are a handful of people I respect in this game as far as game play wise and strategy wise and he was one of them and...its just disappointing. It would be different if i was some random that was like "oh hey I like your articles and I'm a big fan, look over this deck and tell me what you think thanks" hung out at the go, been on podcasts together a few times, back and forth tweets and I get it... He doesn't owe me anything and I'm not saying he does or that he must answer me as fast as possible BC a fan... I just thought there was a little more history than with most people that critic or ask him.for shit...
And as for the ex...my brother asked Mr how I was doing and how i felt about the breakup. Last the this happened... It happened three times before, the breaking up and getting back together bullshit, I told her I wasn't going to fight for her if it came to this. I don't quit on relationships, I work and fight for thmr until there is no hope left and we both can't do it anymore. Anyways, he asked Mr if I was upset, last time I was in tears and trying g to figure out what could be done about this relationship and how to work it out. But this time, I honestly felt like the whole year was a waste of time
I changed as much as I could about the relationship to make it work and even though I asked her to change very little, she couldn't even try to make it work and so this didn't work. I made huge strides in our relationship yo accommodate her but it was never reciprocated and that's what the main factor was... Her family has zero chill but to. And when they get overwhelmed they take it out on each other or the nearest person and they get it instead
Her parents are aggressive to one another so I can see where she got it from. But overall I learned and gained a bunch of stuff for me but it was kind of a waste of time. It was never worth fighting for and for some reason I didn't see it. He also asked me of she apogized and asked to get back together, would I do it and I actually had to think about it but in the end its probably for the best. I am flawed, I have anxiety issues and u work at a shit grocery store job when I am qualified to lead people in a management position... Anyways, so now I have free time and I'll probably go back to the gym. I've gotten. Soft and if I am in shape again I'll find a cuddle buddy sooner..I like cudding... And making out yeeeeah :3
So yeah thats me and until I decide on if this magic the gathering is bad for me financially probably keep playing
..oh and I'm playing trash for treasure in modern. Its really fun and consistent for turn three shinanigains.if I keep doing well I'll probably go to the scg event in pacifica in april. Oh I'd probably see ashlen the cosplayer playing rg tron. Shes so fucking dreamy :3 le sigh.
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